Showing posts with label uncountability versus infinity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label uncountability versus infinity. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

NAN - Not A Number

 
    NAN – Not A Number: a purported numeric representation found invalid by any CPU
Face down with my eyes closed for a moment on a brilliant summer day
Switching my thoughts from dry and empty words to illustrative imaging
Arms outspread and feeling for earth’s smooth rotation underneath me
Smelling the moist brown sod beneath the green grass that’s tickling my nose

Ears pricked to catch the silence of our planet’s revolution about its star
Feeling the moon tracing around us, constantly changing her expression
Alert to the momentary minuscule changes in the output of our sun on my back
Aware of its rotational plane with respect to our own Milky Way

Observing as I move slowly upward and somewhere away from myself
Brain waves smoothing into that ancient, nearly-forgotten, frequency and rhythm
Relaxing, smoothing and soothing every part of my conscious anatomy
Anchoring at a center from which all things move away at the speed of light

NAN is not a number but it is the sum of all of my small experiences
My own unique personal version from one of the uncountable different infinities
Feeling my heart slowing as it nonetheless inexorably tolls my 3 billion allotted beats
Hearing an old German church bell again on that quiet Sunday morning in October

But, jet-lagged and sleep-deprived or fit and well-rested, my dust will be the same
Merging with smaller galaxies we encounter, on a route that seems to be directed
Tracing a path through the cosmos without conscious purpose and to no planned end
Aware of the bee as she buzzes about a neighbor of mine standing here in full flower

Friday, March 23, 2012

Relative To One Another

I am slowing down as you are speeding up and we pass at an angle to time
They go up and we move down with the vast oceanic swells between us

Rotating slowly I see the beauty of the stars and galaxies all around us
Spinning too fast in my time I became disoriented and confused

I am folding up my ragged tent as you stake your newest claim
Her mother can no longer stand but your child has just learned to crawl

I am passing you as he is passing me and we cannot yet get out of their way
There is a new well in your village and we celebrate by our swimming pool

I read my book as you send one-fingered messages off somewhere into the ether
The snow that sent you off the road was welcomed by the farmers

We carved different ellipses around an invisible center of gravity
They waste more than they can ever use as we eke by on castoff remnants

I traveled quite slowly but was struck head-on by a speeding semi
When at last I returned it seemed nothing had changed but no one recognized me, either

The loss of the microscopic diatoms spelled disaster for the whales
Parts of seconds were to seconds as seconds were to the age of the universe

Her long lifetime could not be seen on the smallest of geologic time scales
All their simpering adulation could not push his boat across to heaven

We pass closely heading in different directions in all four known dimensions
Their silly propaganda changes timbre, Doppler shifting with the passing election

We observe a planet perturbing its sun as we are swarmed by microscopic mites
We attack our enemies while trillions of our cells hungrily struggle for their blood supply

Gentle winter sunlight shows the soft side of nuclear fusion on a truly massive scale
We destroy expensive, sophisticated satellites with simple high-speed brute force collisions

I am spinning slowly around in circles but you - You are really making a mark
A sun-glassed business woman phoning in a leased car distractedly strikes a fawn

I am sliding down the hill smiling, never to ascend again
He still climbs upward, his fatigue masked by the anticipation of the run

We both stand quite still as my train leaves you behind at the station
I briefly continue moving in small arcs after stepping off the merry-go-round

This seemingly small increase in temperature rippled through the biosphere
The insects hatched early, the chicks starved and the trees were decimated

My bobber went down just as you roared by shouting hoarsely from your speedboat
I sat down to be served as she struggled with the wood for their cooking fire

Our music and fireworks filled the air but not a sound went into space
I paused behind my muddy ox as your silvery jet gleamed far, far overhead

The difference in our ages would make a full lifetime for someone else
Our fossil bones would mix and date to plus or minus a thousand generations

The look in the eyes of the mutely destitute mother spoke too much to me
He thought disdainfully of all the little words he could ever hope to write

The poverty, filth, sickness, slave labor and lack of hope were as nothing -
Given the wondrous future paradise he learned of in the magnificence of the mosque

The clockwork universe was underpinned by the chaos of quantum uncertainty
Our most basic assumptions proved devastating to our ecological niche

I lay on my back with arms outspread in a field bright with spring flowers
20000 miles above, a geo-synchronous satellite moved right along with me

I breathed deeply as my beautiful vehicle turned oxygen into gases, poisonous to me
You survived by cutting firewood as your goats denuded the drying hillsides

He had his two sons and their daughter-in-laws, so he did not work any more
He strove hard to attain a corporate jet and to earn a 7 figure bonus every year

She remembered as a child that it snowed very heavily and it was always cold
Now, her obese youngsters went about smirkingly in baggy shorts and tees all year round

Each small change was imperceptible but the first and last photos were truly of different men
The runners showed amazing speed, but you casually drove by them so much faster

Dinosaurs dominated the earth for 160 million years but left here 65 million years ago
Our written history began about 5000 years ago with simple bookkeeping records

The sunlight that sustains me takes 8 minutes from its surface to my forehead
Four and a half years later, at 186k mps, it reaches the very nearest star

He looked at me with those soft brown eyes and I just had to stroke his ear
A long line of crowded stinking semis brought more cattle to the slaughterhouse

I am slowing down as you are speeding up, but for a while we have communications
I stand still on this rotating earth, orbiting the sun which revolves about the Milky Way as it moves towards constellation Hydra at a mere 600 kilometers per second

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

It’s far too long for even eternal love to last


Cantor’s diagonalization argument for uncountability > infinity: The real numbers is an extraordinarily special set. If one were to graph the real numbers on a line, any segment on that line contains the same cardinality of points as does the whole line itself.
It’s far too long for me to plan for any future
It’s far too long for my constrained imagination
It’s far too long to engage simple emptiness
It’s far too long for even eternal love to last

There’s just too much time after this blue-green-white earth is gone
There’s just too much time when my memories are thinned beyond recognition
There’s just too much time to be totally senseless, thinking nothing
There’s just too much time to be far less than alone

It’s way too much to even outline
It’s way too much to hold inside
It’s way too much to get a grip on
It’s way too much and still, there’s so much more

I have extra time that I did not even have to save
I have extra time unfolding like a burden I cannot hope to lift
I have extra time growing longer and more overwhelming
I have extra time moving ever faster beyond my shrinking comprehension

I have nothing to do and no way to get it done
I have nothing to do and all the time in the universe to do it
I have nothing to do then and do not even know it
I have nothing to do and cannot get over it

I don’t have to work anymore or ever again
I don’t have to work because there are no workdays
I don’t have to work and I have no boss
I don’t have to work because I flow like water

Freedom at last without any more choices to be made
Freedom at last chained in molecular compounds
Freedom at last in the vast black and near-vacuum
Freedom at last at so close to absolute zero

I’d be happy to live in eternal sorrow
I’d be able to get by with constant pain
I’d be alright with poverty and suffering
I’d be better off than unconscious in that empty and unknowable void