Wednesday, March 28, 2012

NAN - Not A Number

 
    NAN – Not A Number: a purported numeric representation found invalid by any CPU
Face down with my eyes closed for a moment on a brilliant summer day
Switching my thoughts from dry and empty words to illustrative imaging
Arms outspread and feeling for earth’s smooth rotation underneath me
Smelling the moist brown sod beneath the green grass that’s tickling my nose

Ears pricked to catch the silence of our planet’s revolution about its star
Feeling the moon tracing around us, constantly changing her expression
Alert to the momentary minuscule changes in the output of our sun on my back
Aware of its rotational plane with respect to our own Milky Way

Observing as I move slowly upward and somewhere away from myself
Brain waves smoothing into that ancient, nearly-forgotten, frequency and rhythm
Relaxing, smoothing and soothing every part of my conscious anatomy
Anchoring at a center from which all things move away at the speed of light

NAN is not a number but it is the sum of all of my small experiences
My own unique personal version from one of the uncountable different infinities
Feeling my heart slowing as it nonetheless inexorably tolls my 3 billion allotted beats
Hearing an old German church bell again on that quiet Sunday morning in October

But, jet-lagged and sleep-deprived or fit and well-rested, my dust will be the same
Merging with smaller galaxies we encounter, on a route that seems to be directed
Tracing a path through the cosmos without conscious purpose and to no planned end
Aware of the bee as she buzzes about a neighbor of mine standing here in full flower

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